The things can never be your!

  I asked him. Can I ask you a question? He said, 'please don't.. You have lots of questions in your mind. I can't answer all of them.
      I believe, the things should be sorted. But if we can't create a conversation, how the things will get sorted. You don't love to talk? OK.. let's not talk about this...

  The day was not mine. Some statements are good only to announce. Sometimes you have to give up on people, even when you have lots of reasons to not give up.. Start up with new things, than imprison yourself in hoping for the impossible. It was not easy for me.
He was trying to ignore all the possible things. I did everything possible, but it didn't work. While everyone around me was busy with what is trending on social media.. My mind was surfing on Google, how to tackle with these problems? His friendship meant so much to me that I couldn't help falling in love with him.

Still I remember, I had written a short note for him.

'' YOU COMPLETE ME. I CAN'T WAIT TO SPEND MY ENTIRE LIFE WITH YOU. I AM SO GRATEFUL THAT YOU ARE MINE.. YOU'RE MY LIFE, MY LOVE, MY SOUL MATE, MY HEARTBEAT, YOU'RE A LOT TO ME. THANK YOU FOR ACCEPTING ME, THE WAY I AM & FOR NEVER JUDGING ME. ''

He replied, '' I LOVE YOU! our long distance relationship may discourage our love, but I promise that I'll always love you. ''

I wished, he could express his feelings in front of me. & I could see his blinked eyes, full of love and affection. I can still hear his rhythmic heartbeats. I can feel his warm touch.
   I smile to myself. I was thinking about our last days of relationship. He has given the lots of memories to remember. A simple thank you will not be enough, but let me make sure. Our love has faded with a passage of time. I wanted to stop the time for the eternity moments.
     The day he came into my life, he brought love along with the shower of happiness. Whenever he didn't pick up my call.. I missed him a lot & was got irritated on him sometimes. Now, he will never pick up my call, so what will happen to me ?
  
Take a break from reality, stop pretending to be fine. Cry over the things. I m backing out slightly. I have learnt more about him at the end of our relation than the beginning. I haven't given up.. I just have stopped showing him.

I want to be strong enough. I am not as weak as I showed you . It was a disturbing experience. Still I'm unsettled by it. I'm trying to settle it. He helped me to understand the meaning of life, there will be times when life would be really tough, in that situation, i have to be mentally strong.

How deeply some incidents would affect our life!

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  1. Unknown4 July 2018 at 11:49

    I feel such incidences are life maker...

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  2. Vinayak Purushottam12 August 2019 at 10:58

    Beautifully expressed.. anyone can relate with it...❤️

    वो अफसाना जिसे अंजाम तक लाना ना हो मुमकीन.. उसे एक खूबसूरत मोड देकर छोडना अच्छा... ��

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